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A Climb .

Tonight will end soon. Tomorrow please be cheerful :)
I dont know.
i'm not sure.
i begin to tumble down,
i lost some part of me
to continue revising (Murajaah) Quran
wholeheartedly

its been a week since i started to feel give up
I need motivations
I need time
but, oh whats new?

so i just want to let it out.
one day
just that one day,
if i caught in this situation again,
i know its normal,
i know its okay.
And if i acknowledge others in this situation,
i would understand them better
i would not judge them
i too,
would increase my thankfulness towards Him,
the One who hold my heart

you see,
A Hafiz or Hafizah its not only a plain title
where anyone would proud to be one.
we are different from others.
we hold the heaviest responsibility.
we do feel pressured
especially when someone put high expectations on us.
They say
A Hafiz or Hafizah should be pious
shouldn't do any mistakes,
should remember every single verse of the Quran
All those Should(s) and Shouldn't(s)
list it down all you want
yes, yes. we know
we want to be those just like you listed too
we struggle to be better, day by day
but remember, its Allah who choose what He wants.

sometimes we feel tired too.
we have less resting time compared to others.
we are stuck in choosing
between what we want and we really need
no, please dont misunderstand me.
its not my point to make you feel demotivated.
i just want you to know
this journey is not as smooth as you thought
but i believe,
as long as we tajdid our niyyah,
to do this only for Him,
it will be worth it.

so,
it's okay, erika.
enough of resting too long.
stand up.
i know you are strong.
i believe you can do this- biIznih.

(Im not good in english, but hmm)

Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli haal :)
💕3rd Jamadilawwal 1438H💕

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